Unit 8

Wow, what a week I had, this past week.  I finally got my test date for my CNA for the state of Florida, along with getting my fingerprints done.  I also start my new job temporarily at the Spirit Halloween Store as the Store Manager.  I can't wait.  I start this Tuesday, I am out of jail; being trapped at the house!!!!  The good thing about this job is it is seasonal...  I only have to work until the second week of November, then I am done.  Then I get to start my so called internship at a doctors office and get my credited hours in before I graduate in January.  I am looking forward for to my future and can't wait!!!

My Mind Is Full of Emotions

Hey Everyone,

I asked my daughter the other day what she would like for her birthday.  Her response, made me come to a complete stop and I just started crying hysterically.  As I stated before, I am alone with both of our children while my husband in working in Cape Cod, MA.  She responded by saying she didn't want anything for her birthday, no party; not even a birthday cake.  All she told she wants for her birthday is to see her daddy.  I am the parent here, I am supposed to be the strong one here.  I couldn't respond to her request, all I could to was hold her in my arms.  When my husband called that evening I told him what our little 6 yr. old had told me.  The phone line went to dead silence.  Sometimes I wonder if his choice in leaving was the best choice we made together.  I know he is working to support his family, while I stay home and go to school, but is the choice we made worth our children's happiness?  He is missing out on so much, watching them grow up.  He is gone for about 6 months.  My husband comes back at the end of October.  I just don't want our girls growing up with anger towards their father, because he was only there part of the time.  Don't get me wrong, they do understand what he is sacrificing and not only so I instill in them how much their father loves and misses them, so does he every time he calls.  But lately I have been wondering if that is enough?

Unit 6- 8/15/2010

Wow!!! I just completed my votech training school for CNA.  I past the school's exam; both written and hands on.  Now I just have to wait for my appointment for my state exam.  Once I pass this I will be able to get my license, I can't wait.  The hardest part of everything was keeping myself going.  I was overloaded with going to the votech; along with my classes here at Kaplan, but I did it.  It was worth it!!!!  I set a goal and was able to accomplish it, what a  great feeling.  Now I can rest : )  Once I receive my license I will be able to get a job.  I have been waiting for this for a long time now, I hope it will be worth the wait.

I am also happy that school starts next week for my kids.  They can't wait to go back and I can't wait for the peace and quiet. : )  Don't get me wrong, I love my girls, but I need mommy time for myself.  I know I will regret saying that, because I know I will feel weird and awkward in the house by myself.  It will take some getting used to again.  At least I will be able to get my assignments done without any interruptions, no excuses for me...LOL

Unit 5 Aug. 6, 2010

WOW!!!  I just added more onto my plate...besides being a full-time student and stay home mother; I just enrolled myself into Southwestern Vocational Training School.  I start this Monday, I am going to try to get my CNA certificate.  My classes are for one week M-F 8-4.  Then I challenge the state exam in Florida.  I decided to do this, because I want a job so badly.  I am going stir crazy staying at home with my children everyday.  Don't get me wrong I love my girls, but I will soon be alone once school starts on Aug. 23rd.  I figured, there really is no better timing than now.  I know I will do great, I'm just a little nervous for the state exam, but once I pass I will have a job for the time being until I graduate Kaplan in January.  It's a start for me and for my career, along with a paycheck coming in.  I just want to feel accomplished and not have to rely solely on my husbands crazy hours that he works in Cape Cod, MA. He chose to go because the money is so good there being a seasonal chef.  I want him to come home to his family and if this helps out, I am willing to do anything for my family to be together.  He has been gone since May, we miss him, especially our girls.  I don't want to feel guilty anymore, with having all this extra time on my hands, thinking and feeling helpless.